4th Trimester

Okay, so I know there is no such thing. I am just so done being pregnant and I want to see my little boy face to face. I want to hold him in my arms and kiss him. However, I can't do that because I am still pregnant.

It all started in December. I found out I was pregnant on Christmas Day. It was more of a support thing for someone else. She wanted to take a pregnancy test, and bought a package with two in it. We agreed to both take one. I knew in the back of my mind that there was always the possibility that I could be pregnant, but I really didn't think I was.

Reasons why:
1. I was still breastfeeding #3.
2. #3 was only 8 months old. My kids are all 2 yrs apart.
3. Not sure I was ready.

God had other plans. She came out of the bathroom with a smile and said, "I'm not pregnant." I came out of the bathroom with a confused look on my face and staring at the test. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It was positive.

After a few minutes, the excitement set in, and I couldn't wait to tell everyone.

I decided to give birth at a birthing center with a midwife instead of going to a hospital. We are still pretty excited about the idea of a water birth.

I was due on August 31st, and we thought that I would give birth before that because the first three were early. Well, God had other plans. Today is September 6th, and I am still pregnant.

I am finding it hard to believe, and hard to cope with. I am wondering if I am too stressed, too lazy, or just too fat. I am a little concerned about the size of baby, but praying that he will not be too big. I do hope he will be chunky though. I have never had a chunky baby. Mine have all been really skinny, and really tall. I hope this one is chunky. He did have a longer time to cook, so it's always possible.

Tomorrow morning I get to go into the hospital to have a non stress test. Purely precautionary. Tomorrow I am 41 weeks pregnant. We are almost positive that nothing is wrong. We think he is just very comfortable, and maybe he knows what is waiting for him out here. Three older brothers is a lot to handle. Tomorrow afternoon I have an appointment with the midwife, and she will attempt to sweep my membranes. Hopefully this will kick start labor, and we are praying that our new addition will be in our arms by tomorrow night.

Please pray with us that everything goes smooth, and baby is healthy.

We thank God daily for the miracle he is growing inside me.