I am struggling with the fact that I have not given birth yet. I was worried about the Hurricane Irene that was supposed to hit Florida on Thursday. If there are warnings out, then I am to go to the hospital and just sit there. I guess it's a good idea, but I had my heart set on not delivering at the hospital, so this was not good news to me.
I am planning on doing a water birth at the birthing center. I didn't want to have the hospital restricting me to laying on my back, and not walking or eating. I was so excited to have found the birthing center, and also to have all the support of my friends and family. Some were skeptical at first, but I have their full support.
Now it looks like Hurricane Irene will miss Florida. YAY!!! I am still pregnant, and waiting for my precious baby to arrive, but I am no longer bummed about the whole hospital thing. Thanks to everyone that was praying for the hurricane to shift direction and not come this way. I do want to experience my first hurricane, I know I'm crazy, but not while I am 39 weeks pregnant.
That is another thing!!! I have never been this pregnant before. Jameson was born at 35 weeks, due to my gall bladder problems. Teagen was born at 37 weeks, just made it to full term. Gavin was born at 38 almost 39 weeks. I am sitting here wondering if I will be pregnant forever. I am praying every day for him to come soon, but I always tell God that I know it's His will and He knows what's best. Sometimes, I admit, I do think I know better. Then God shows me that He is right. Lord, please just bring me a healthy baby!
After I was able to calm myself down, being extremely thankful to not have a hurricane on my doorstep, I find out there was an earthquake today. What?!? In Virginia? I had never heard of earthquakes in Virginia. Very interesting.
I have a TV, but I don't get local channels, or cable. So when I see people on facebook talking about an earthquake I was shocked. I was looking into different news web pages and couldn't find much information. I don't believe there was that much damage, if any, but still weird.
With all the "stuff" going on in the world today, I would not be surprised if Jesus came soon. I really hope He does. But, then I think of all the people I know that don't know Him. Man, I really need to open my mouth more often and spread the good news. There are some people very close to me that are not saved, and I have not even said a word to them about it. God may be waiting for me to open my big mouth for the right reason to share the Gospel with someone so that He can do what He does.
Lord help me and guide me. Only through You can I do this. Give me the strength and the courage and the words to say. Bring salvation to my loved ones. Lord, also help me to share You with those I do not love so much.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Still Pregnant
I am 38 weeks and 3 days pregnant today. I have 12 days to go until my due date. I am really hoping that the baby will come soon (like tonight). I am so excited to meet him, and would really like to not have heartburn anymore. I will be posting pictures as soon as he arrives. Please keep praying that all will go smooth with the delivery.
We are still planning on delivering at the birth center. I am really hoping for a water birth. We try to go swimming as often as we can, and I am so much more comfortable in the water.
For those of you that don't know me personally, I was in diving in high school, and practically lived in the water for seven years. I am comfortable there and would love to experience a water birth.
Jameson told me today that he doesn't want another brother. Instead he would like a sister. I told him that he should pray about it. "Maybe someday God will give you a little sister." I am not sure he liked that answer, but that's all I could say.
Gavin is going to have a hard time with the new baby. He already has a hard time sharing my attention with anyone else. He is having a really hard time with mommy not being able to pick him up all the time. He is 16 months and 28 pounds. That is just a little to much for me right now. I do snuggle with him a lot on the couch though. He seems to be crawling into my lap quite a bit. I think he knows things are about to change.
Teagen is starting to become a little rebelious. Of course he is 3 now. He is learning how to write his letters, and gets angry when I try to help him, or ask him to write other letters. He is very independent. He also wants to help all the time, but is not big enough or strong enough to do the things he wants to do.
Jameson is a huge helper. He does dishes and laundry and sweeps and so much more. The only things he doesn't do on his own yet are, cooking on the stove (he's too short) and diaper changing (he refuses). He just started taking showers every day. He wants to be like daddy. He also is wearing deoderant. He doesn't really need it, but he wants to wear it. After all, he is a big boy now. I am really looking forward to all the help he will be able to provide when the new baby comes.
I can't imagine having another blessing added to all the ones that have already been given to me. God has been so good to us. Despite all the trials we have been through lately, I am still in awe at how much he loves me. He has entrusted me with the lives of four little boys. I am responsible for teaching the and raising them to love God, their creator. At times I don't think I can do it. At other times I am so excited. Thank you so much God for my family, both biological and spiritual. Thank you God for saving me, and giving me the gift of eternal life, that I may teach my children the truth.
We are still planning on delivering at the birth center. I am really hoping for a water birth. We try to go swimming as often as we can, and I am so much more comfortable in the water.
For those of you that don't know me personally, I was in diving in high school, and practically lived in the water for seven years. I am comfortable there and would love to experience a water birth.
Jameson told me today that he doesn't want another brother. Instead he would like a sister. I told him that he should pray about it. "Maybe someday God will give you a little sister." I am not sure he liked that answer, but that's all I could say.
Gavin is going to have a hard time with the new baby. He already has a hard time sharing my attention with anyone else. He is having a really hard time with mommy not being able to pick him up all the time. He is 16 months and 28 pounds. That is just a little to much for me right now. I do snuggle with him a lot on the couch though. He seems to be crawling into my lap quite a bit. I think he knows things are about to change.
Teagen is starting to become a little rebelious. Of course he is 3 now. He is learning how to write his letters, and gets angry when I try to help him, or ask him to write other letters. He is very independent. He also wants to help all the time, but is not big enough or strong enough to do the things he wants to do.
Jameson is a huge helper. He does dishes and laundry and sweeps and so much more. The only things he doesn't do on his own yet are, cooking on the stove (he's too short) and diaper changing (he refuses). He just started taking showers every day. He wants to be like daddy. He also is wearing deoderant. He doesn't really need it, but he wants to wear it. After all, he is a big boy now. I am really looking forward to all the help he will be able to provide when the new baby comes.
I can't imagine having another blessing added to all the ones that have already been given to me. God has been so good to us. Despite all the trials we have been through lately, I am still in awe at how much he loves me. He has entrusted me with the lives of four little boys. I am responsible for teaching the and raising them to love God, their creator. At times I don't think I can do it. At other times I am so excited. Thank you so much God for my family, both biological and spiritual. Thank you God for saving me, and giving me the gift of eternal life, that I may teach my children the truth.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Work
I have been really busy lately. There is so much that has happened, and so much to share. We have been going through a little bit of a trial these last few weeks. Scott lost his job. We were devastated. We didn't know what we were going to do.
Have you ever been there? How are we going to pay rent? How are we going to buy gas for the car so he can look for a new job? There were so many thoughts that were running through my head. So many things that I was starting to worry about.
The only thing that was able to calm my nerves and my mind, was God. I knew that He had provided for our family in the past. I worried myself through trials before only to come out on the other end wondering why I spent that much energy on worrying when God had taken care of everything.
It also helped, that Scott was very calm. He was amazing. I know he probably had his worries, but he didn't show them. He was able to remain calm around me, which helped me to remain calm. We prayed. We read God's Word. We sat and talked. We became closer. In this time of trial, we have become closer to each other, and closer to God.
God had blessed us with so much. We have been striving to listen to what God wants, striving to do His will. We were not always asking for a job, but for guidance on what he wants us to do with our lives.
Scott is interested in going into ministry. He wants to go back to school. He wants to learn all he can about God, and share what he learns with the world. Ever since he went to Haiti, he feels drawn there. He plans on returning there in November, but only for a few days. He would like to extend the time spent there to a few months or longer. He would also like to take his family. We would love to go as well. Doing work for God, and sharing His love is one of those natural highs.
We are expecting a baby here in just a couple weeks, (anytime now). There is still so much to do. I still have to pack the bag. I also have an iron deficiency. I am on iron supplements along with Vitamin C to help the absorption.
We are praying that everything will go well with the delivery, as it will be at a birth center, not a hospital. I have never delivered outside a hospital before, but I am very excited about the freedom I will have to move around. Also, I am excited about not even having an option of drugs. I really don't want someone reminding me of all the pain I'm in. Instead they will be helping me overcome that pain and reminding me of the "MIRACLE" that has been blessed to us again. We are so excited to welcome boy #4.
Back to the issue of a job. I am pregnant, and tend to change subject pretty often, and also forget what I am talking about quite often, so bear with me.
We have some amazing friends that were in a trial of their own, with a place to live for about two months between apartments. God led us together, and we are now living with a total of 4 adults, and 4 children (soon to be 5 children). This is a blessing to us all. We will have some extra help with the kids after I give birth, and the company is great. It is amazing how God has provided for us all.
Talking about provision, Scott has been offered a job. The pay is not quite what he was receiving before, but it is an amazing opportunity. Chik-Fil-A! For those of you who have never heard of this company, it is a fast food restaurant that serves Chicken. Their advertisements are hilarious. It is a Christian founded business that is closed on Sundays. YAY! They are fine with Scott starting and taking time off soon when the baby comes, and also to take time off in November for the mission trip he has planned.
It has been a total of three weeks that Scott has been out of work, and that is all it took. With the unemployment rate and the amount we needed him to make for us to live on, I was surprised that he got a job so quickly. God has blessed us, and provided for us so many times. He has moved in our lives so many times. He has blessed us with the strength and the faith to endure whatever may come our way.
We thank every one of you that has prayed for us. May God bless your lives as well. We are on our way to the other side of this trial, and all I can do is thank God for it. We have learned so much.
Have you ever been there? How are we going to pay rent? How are we going to buy gas for the car so he can look for a new job? There were so many thoughts that were running through my head. So many things that I was starting to worry about.
The only thing that was able to calm my nerves and my mind, was God. I knew that He had provided for our family in the past. I worried myself through trials before only to come out on the other end wondering why I spent that much energy on worrying when God had taken care of everything.
It also helped, that Scott was very calm. He was amazing. I know he probably had his worries, but he didn't show them. He was able to remain calm around me, which helped me to remain calm. We prayed. We read God's Word. We sat and talked. We became closer. In this time of trial, we have become closer to each other, and closer to God.
God had blessed us with so much. We have been striving to listen to what God wants, striving to do His will. We were not always asking for a job, but for guidance on what he wants us to do with our lives.
Scott is interested in going into ministry. He wants to go back to school. He wants to learn all he can about God, and share what he learns with the world. Ever since he went to Haiti, he feels drawn there. He plans on returning there in November, but only for a few days. He would like to extend the time spent there to a few months or longer. He would also like to take his family. We would love to go as well. Doing work for God, and sharing His love is one of those natural highs.
We are expecting a baby here in just a couple weeks, (anytime now). There is still so much to do. I still have to pack the bag. I also have an iron deficiency. I am on iron supplements along with Vitamin C to help the absorption.
We are praying that everything will go well with the delivery, as it will be at a birth center, not a hospital. I have never delivered outside a hospital before, but I am very excited about the freedom I will have to move around. Also, I am excited about not even having an option of drugs. I really don't want someone reminding me of all the pain I'm in. Instead they will be helping me overcome that pain and reminding me of the "MIRACLE" that has been blessed to us again. We are so excited to welcome boy #4.
Back to the issue of a job. I am pregnant, and tend to change subject pretty often, and also forget what I am talking about quite often, so bear with me.
We have some amazing friends that were in a trial of their own, with a place to live for about two months between apartments. God led us together, and we are now living with a total of 4 adults, and 4 children (soon to be 5 children). This is a blessing to us all. We will have some extra help with the kids after I give birth, and the company is great. It is amazing how God has provided for us all.
Talking about provision, Scott has been offered a job. The pay is not quite what he was receiving before, but it is an amazing opportunity. Chik-Fil-A! For those of you who have never heard of this company, it is a fast food restaurant that serves Chicken. Their advertisements are hilarious. It is a Christian founded business that is closed on Sundays. YAY! They are fine with Scott starting and taking time off soon when the baby comes, and also to take time off in November for the mission trip he has planned.
It has been a total of three weeks that Scott has been out of work, and that is all it took. With the unemployment rate and the amount we needed him to make for us to live on, I was surprised that he got a job so quickly. God has blessed us, and provided for us so many times. He has moved in our lives so many times. He has blessed us with the strength and the faith to endure whatever may come our way.
We thank every one of you that has prayed for us. May God bless your lives as well. We are on our way to the other side of this trial, and all I can do is thank God for it. We have learned so much.
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